Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The lasts

We put up our Christmas decorations over the past weekend. As we were erecting our fake tree (because it's cleaner, cheaper and easier than a real one) I said to Joc, "Do you realize this is our last Christmas with just us, for like at least 18 years, probably longer." We just sort of looked at each other and realized what that meant to each of us. I know things are going to change, dramatically, but we'll be the same people... right? I got to thinking, how many other "lasts" are we going to have over the next 7 months?
Last travels with the only hassle being the dog and what to do with her, last evenings out doing whatever without childcare planned, last days "off" with nothing to do... I could probably make quite a list. But I won't.
This is scary. It's nerve wracking and unclear. It's going to be hard, but I've done hard before. It's gonna be fun and I love fun. It's gonna be like nothing we can even imagine.


TB said...

and think of all the firsts! :)
first christmas as three, first tooth, first smile, first boo boo, first time riding a two wheeler, first time you realize you heart belongs to someone else :)

Amy Starkey said...

i like Teresa's comment...there are a ton of lasts for you...but there are so many firsts! i would never give up all those firsts to have my lasts back! it's scary, but it's gonna be the best thing that's ever happened...your life is going to change dramaticaly and you may and may not be the same people...you probably won't be the same...you think you know what love is before you have children...you think you know what it is to care so much about someone else...then you have a child...you realize what total love and devotion is...you realize you would give up anything in the world for that one little being...it's crazy and hard and fun and you'll be great at it! i'm so excited for you guys!